I watched you climb those stairs for an hour Nowhere left to go so I followed you I was cramped and closed And awkward stares and finger pointing Good thing our rooms weren’t adjoining Because it’s already getting to late for these chest pains Well I burned my tongue on the coffee And it was only 10:30 But I already wanted to get some sleep But it’s pretty hard to go to bed When it’s filled with you that you’ve never met and you just want them to leave So I guess that I was your problems Why’d you have to go and solve them Did it matter anyway Because just last week it was changing I was up all night and my mind was racing with the thought that someday it might be the same But you said it was up to me to make this a good memory As we sat beneath that tree that day But you and your bipolarity had just started to get to me Even though I was used to it by now

Who needs best friends When they all just turn out to be illusions Cause if I could go back to that night I probably would say what was on my mind But my life has got so much better without you And if I ever see you again I’m afraid of what I might do People plagiarize emotions just to say that they’re alive I couldn’t fake this if I tried But I’ll live happily forever out the rest of my life in my mind But my life has got so much better without you And if I ever see you again I’m afraid of what I might do

Sometimes I feel like I just want to die and I don’t even know why I’ve got glass for teeth that cracks when we meet But you’re falling again, and I’m falling like fall Unfortunately fortunate, you’re flawlessly flawed Another night, another night Drive in circles to make it last I did a shitty job of sewing this back together again And the seams can’t take it much longer anymore But you’re falling again, and I’m falling like fall Unfortunately fortunate, you’re flawlessly flawed I wrote her a song But I wrote it all wrong Tangled fingers and chords Slipped up words in the verse A young and tired face Facing futures past Miss the pavement as you step Your body can sleep but your head’s awake Do you want to come over now Yeah I guess I haven’t got that much let to guess about I think I finally understand why the ground is so jealous of the sky And the only thing I ask is a simple why

I dreamt of being alone No I don’t want to be alone I need somebody by my side And it’s you I have in my eye Back when I was 15 I would wear my old ripped jeans I didn’t buy them I would cut For now reason just because I was boring and naive I took you to the movies And that was the biggest type of night Correct me if I am not right When drama wasn’t on tv It was a day to day routine And we would blend into the scene I could blend into everything And I would grow my hair out long And reference it into a song And I would listen to The Cure The disease that they once were And then you would forget to say goodnight I wonder if you are just right But then you’d smile back at me And I would really finally see I would wait for you if you would wait for me I’ll sit outside and freeze my ass off just to see you again I just want to see your face again I wonder if I am a joke Your sarcasm’s gone for broke My record needle just won’t play I think I made new friends today I abuse caffeine like it’s cocaine I don’t remember that girl’s name I don’t remember that girl’s name I don’t remember anything I would wait for you if you would wait for me I’ll sit outside and freeze my ass off just to see you again I just want to see your face again

I thought you were mad at me For once you thought I was mad at you Isn't that something new Dragging circles on the ground I have no patience for when he's around Little suicides Keep you in my mind Cracked spots on the bleeding floor I walk out the old wooden door I don't know where I am Send your friends down to check on you But I don't think I need them to Who gives a shit about me Little suicides Keep you in my mind Little suicides Keep you occupied

Sleep, don’t whisper Scrawl your name across my chest I don’t feel like it again Your tattoos bleed and fade with age I don’t know what’s left to say If you turn away I’m afraid you’ll never turn back again All my strings are out of tune But I’ll snap back, start anew Drag my fingers across your skin Let the sun creep in through the window panes I could sleep all day with you All the colors, the reds, the greens, and the blues If you turn away I’m afraid you’ll never turn back again All my strings are out of tune But I’ll snap back, start anew There’s a ghost in my head Tells me all the things you said Hauntingly in my bad dreams It won’t leave me alone If you turn away I’m afraid you’ll never turn back again All my strings are out of tune But I’ll snap back, start anew

My best friend is my Playstation And I can’t deny how alone I feel tonight I get home after work My boss is such a fucking jerk I go to sleep cause my head hurts But she is at the bar again And she is out with my best friends Well I don’t know if I can even do anything right I try so hard to be alright I’m stuck on some mistake That I didn’t even really make You take the blame you goddamn fake But I don’t ever want to see your face again And if I see you I won’t pretend I go on walking away I do whatever I can say I do what I can to forget you Cause I think I’ll be alright Cause I trust my insides And I know I know, I know, I know, I know, I know, I know, I know, I know I know I’ll do better than you I’ll do better than you I’ll do better than you I can do better than you

Every party we would go to You’d always arrive 15 minutes late Just to act like you came alone So your plan worked Now what? You put flowers on my car Lightning field and wet grass we would run And the rain it fell upon us The hail came down like boulders I had the weight of the world on my shoulders You would follow me home I want coffee, I want tea I want coffee, I want tea I want coffee, I want tea I don’t want to go to sleep You get your hands in everything

I’m not the only one that you had gave up on Coffee eyes are staining black again But now I’m always moving forwards I was so stuck in reverse But you know we are flowing just like the ocean With our emotions The only person I hate more than you is me If you think I’m cynical just you wait and see I’ll blow the roof of this place And now I feel so lost in outer space. But you know we are flowing just like the ocean With our emotions

I awoke from my rest Snow covered hills and your blue dress Called you on the phone Couldn’t tell if you were there or really all alone So I drive to your house No where to park, so I walk to your door Ring the bell, no one’s there and I can tell But this is not the last, the first time, that I will be the last to know So all is well, I can taste the grass and hear the smells But I was a good guy and you are too good of a girl The house it creaks, moves under my feet Like it doesn’t want to house me My favorite time of year is when you weren’t so near And I was on the ground But this is not the last, the first time, that I will be the last to know But my reasons are your excuse And I remember yours Crying on the drive home I hid under my shirt But at least I feel alive All I can do is try All I can do is try All I can do is try

I don’t really know how you think you know me but you don’t at all So rip out your eyes and just rip out your teeth Because the only thing that you could ever really be is a scene or an act You’re full of shit and that is that I don’t care, no I don’t I’ll sit by and watch you just choke on the dirt in your throat I know I’m kind of visceral but I just think you’re missing the point An introvert misogynist No this is not a part of this Even you think I’ll blend into the abyss of your illusions I’m probably just rambling but you are just scrambling for an act Or some way to put a label on that It’s all just too much It’s all just too much I think you’re a lie But who doesn’t have to lie just to get by in the world It’s okay I forgive you in this world It’s okay I forgive you this time I should just shut up and maybe I should just give up Because maybe I’m a big fuck up and maybe I’m just out of luck right now I can’t read your face, it’s probably from some other space It’s like a book I can’t replace It’s like the look that you gave me that night It’s alright The mystery’s the fun part Who really wants to find out at all? I could write another song or I could write a few more songs But we would just never really ever kind of get along Back a couple of years I probably still had some fears of being told what I can and can’t do But it never came from you And I’ll just keep on doing it just over and over and over and over and over and over no I shouldn’t do it I shouldn’t do it I shouldn’t do it But I think I will